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I was thinking earlier today about women.

I'm the guy who says blatantly sexist things for the fun of it. Why? It's not because I think men are superior to women.

Virtually every guy I know personally went through a horrible break-up at some point and absolutely hated women for awhile. I'm no exception, though my very few relationships have been a special sort of fucked up reserved only for the kind of guy who did some really shitty things in past lives.

I know in my head that women aren't really evil incarnate. A couple of my best friends are ladies. My mother is the kindest, most generous human being on the planet.

But things get so twisted after you get dumped.

I can't say what it's like for a girl - I'm sure it's total shit, but in my experience, girls tend to keep their options open. There happens to be a "just a friend" that could end up in the boyfriend position a week later. This is, evolutionarily speaking, an excellent trait to have. However, it makes an ex-boyfriend feel like a stooge.

A guy who just got his heart broken thinks he's the worst piece of shit in the world. He can't keep a woman happy, so what good is he? He cared about one thing above all other things in his life, and what he thought were his best efforts ending up being all for naught. I could go on and on, but you get the picture.

Incidentally, I believe this happens because of the Sex Bell Curve. The Sex Bell Curve is how a guy assigns the highest possible status to sex because it feels like the best thing ever, even if it isn't the best by much. So when a guy loses sex, it's as if he lost the best possible thing in the world.

Getting back to my point, the reason I say blatantly sexist things is to remind myself how it felt, even though the pain has (mostly) healed. It may not be a good reason. But I don't want to let myself become that guy who's always looking for a girlfriend, you know? I can feel my hormones building up again, even as we speak. I take lingering glances at particularly attractive females, even though that's a low third on my list of requirements. It's maddening that my own blood is working against me in this instance.

I know a guy who was somewhat seriously considering cutting off his balls so he couldn't be controlled by women anymore. I think I talked him out of it. But still, that's how much it sucks to lose one's sense of logic.

Full disclosure: I bring this up because my first ex-girlfriend just found me on facebook. All that badness I felt towards her long ago faded to nothingness - I learned later in life that getting dumped really feels bad after the girl starts telling you she's in love with you. But I know that my endocrine system is trying desperately to get me to ruin my life and I think this is a good time to remember why I don't want that to happen.